Monday, October 10, 2011
Before I catch up with my fellow readers, I would like to give Noah credit for inspiring me to write. Yesterday i was looking around Facebook and I came across his page so I was reading his info and stuff, and on his info is probably the most amazing poem I have ever read in my entire life. It's really outstanding. I would like to put it on here so all of you can see how great it is, but I'd have to ask him permission first. But after I read his poem, it was so outstanding that I asked him if he wrote it and that it's incredible. After that we started to talk and I found out that he writes a lot but he's had writers block for a few months now. Of course that reminded me of myself for blogging. He told me that he really wants to write more but he can't seem to ink of anything to write about. That hit me that if he can write such amazing poems and then have writers block but have the hope to start again, I should have to hope to start blogging again. So thank you Noah for inspiring me to keep writing.
Here's a confession. In those two months of having writers block, I contemplated on making my 100th post my last. I started to think that people never reads it, and I never write anything good enough to read anyways. I started doubting all hope that maybe, if I write on here, somebody might actually pay attention to me and start hearing what I have to say. Let's face it. I'm a shy girl. I don't talk at school, I can't confront anybody. I have trouble expressing myself and I can't come across the realization that It won't hurt anything for me to just start talking to someone. Maybe it will help me make friends, but I just don't have the courage and confidence in me talk to somebody. So if I write on here and express myself through writing, I may have the chance that my words might affect somebody, anybody. I forgot how good I felt when I saw how many people are visiting my blog. I mean, if you look on the side of my page, there's a ticker and it shows how many people have visited my blog. I have over 1500 views. That may not seem like a lot to you, but it means a lot to me. It doesn't matter if 500 of those views are some of the same people over and over again. The point is that people are reading this. I hope to one day have more than that, but for right now, that's good. I've never spoken to over 1500 people in my life, but knowing that that many people has read my words, gives me a tingly feeling. So no. This isn't my last post. Instead of making this my post post, let's make it a new beginning. That's why I have changed the title of my blog on the address bar.
My blog used to be titled "thescreamoemo" for The Screamo Emo. But that's not who I am. That's who I wanted to be two years ago. Yeah, I listened to screamo. Now, most of it gives me a headache. Yeah, I had emo bangs for a year. They were a bad idea. But I never once felt emo. I've always been optimistic. I've always had the power to look around the big picture and analyze every piece of it. But I rarely feel 'emo'. And for the record, I've never cut myself. I know that's a stereotype, but I though I should mention that. But I changed the title. People change. I change. When I realize I've changed, I should change the name of it. Everybody changes. Nothing can stay the exact same forever. I changed my title to "1stepback6stepsforward" or one step back, six steps forward. There's a meaning behind everything. It basically means that the little bad things in life may pull me one step back, so it won't effect me much, but the big things in life, the things that really matter. Now that put me six steps forward. Don't worry about the little things. The big things are what really count in life. Don't let the little things effect you, because I'm not going to let them effect me. I'm going to keep moving forward. Sure, I'll keep changing, but I'll also find who I REALLY am by it.
So aside from all of the deep stuff, there's been other stuff going on also.
Like for instance, homecoming was on September 24th. It was really great. I don't have pictures right this moment because they're on Kevin's camera. I slept till 5 that day and I had to wake up and hurry to get ready.
I know my last post was before school started but I don't feel the need to tell you every boring detail of my school experience. It's going good, though.
I also have a job. My sister got me a Job her Mcdonalds since she's hiring manager. It's going really good. I've almost learned everyone's names and everyone's pretty nice to me. I've learned all of the man's jobs. I love grill and back wall. Back wall is where we make all of the chicken and fish and grill is where we make the burgers and bacon. It's simple, but you get burnt at least 500 times before the day is over. Not kidding. But I've also learned fries, hash browns, I can also make everything up front except ice cream cones. Damn cones.... I learned front counter too, but let's not even go there. That was the first time I've cried from work, so let's not talk about that. It's a fun job, it just makes my feet want to explode. You'd think it's easy since it's Mcdonalds, but it's not easy at all. But hey, I'll get used to it.
Home is going good too, seeing as I'm never home anymore. That's a good thing.
Me and Kevin's year and a half was last Friday on the 30th. That was nice. We just hung out, but spending time with him is great.
I had all of these plans on what I'd write in here, but I can't really think of anything right now. I wrote this huge thing on who I am, but when Kevin read it he cried, so I don't know what I did with it. I think I threw it away, but it was really good.
So I realized that no matter what I do right now, I'll regret it in the future. Like how I act, dress, say. I'll regret something.this back in time. You probably thought that hair style was a good idea. Nope. It wasn't. I know I think that all the time. When I was little I have straight across my forehead bangs and I always wore my hair in piggy tails. Bad idea. Middle school I have a middle part. Very bad Idea. I also always thought it looked attractive if I braided my whole head after getting out of the shower then letting them out in the morning and wear my hair looking like a poof ball. Bad idea. I also regret my emo bangs. I always got made fun of because of it. Bad idea. I regret wearing cat ears all the time last time even though I thought they were the cutest things and getting meowed at in the hall was a compliment. Nope. They were mocking me. Looking back at it, I couldve done without them. Bad idea. The clothes I used to wear. Bad idea. No matter what you do in your life, in the future, you'll look back at it and regret it. You're supposed to live with no regrets but your mind is changing all the time so what you think is cute now, may be a bad idea looking back at it in the future. It's also like smoking, drinking, and doing drugs. You may think it's cool now, but you'll regret it in the future. Probably when you get lung cancer. In freshmen year, I thought it was cool to fail my classes. Bad idea. I regret it and I'm still trying to make it all up now. I'm mostly caught up, but I regret it. I regret lying to my friends and family. I regret my entire seventh grade year. That probably my most biggest regret that will never go away. I regret all of the crushes I had in middle school. I regret being a tattle tail. I regret feeding my hamster a vanilla wafer. I regret telling my best friends new friend to stay away from her. I regret losing contact with all of my old friends. I regret not calling Alex over the summer when I should have. I regret playfully telling Kevin I hate him when he was tickling me over a year ago. I regret getting in a bike accident because I told my cousin im faster than him and I ended up with a sprained arm and a ganglion cyst. I regret most of the things I've told my parents. I regret not building a relationship with my parents and not being close to them now. I regret telling my best friend's sister a whore and now she hates me. I regret telling everyone she probably has aids because she's been with so many guys. I regret not doing my homework today. I regret deleting all the pictures from my camera. I regret eating in the living and spilling blazing hot oatmeal all over me from it. I regret being a cry baby. I regret buying a new ds and then not playing with it. I regret not cleaning my hamsters cage as much as they needed it. I regret not watching my weight.
The point is, is that you will regret things in your life no matter what you do to try and not regret nothing. I always try not to regret anything, but I still do. But don't go and make mistakes that you know you will regret. I know I will never regret being against drugs, smoking and drugs. I will never regret being a pacifist. I will never regret being atheist. I will never regret not cussing.
You can't live with no regret, but you can make good choices in life.
I don't really have anything else for you all. I don't think I made this post as long as I wanted, but hey, I finally finished my 100th post and I won't regret not giving up on blogging.
Until next time.
Thursday, August 18, 2011
School starts in three days! What the hell! It went by so quickly! Well, I'm ready. Today was the schools open house and we got our schedules Debbie came and got me so I could go with Kevin. We got there even before open house started which was good. I have emotionally prepared myself to see anybody. Though I did look super cute. But I got my schedule and I'm very content with my schedule. I was able to talk to the guidance counselor and got switched out of band. That's perfect. I don't want in band! I'm happy I'm out of it. And also, NO MORE FRENCH! I'm so happy I don't have to ever speak that devil language again. So I have good classes. Plus I have parenting! Woo! I have three classes with Kevin this year. And lunch together! I'm happy I get to see him a bunch since it's his senior year. Im kinda excited for school to start. Other than the fact I haven't got any supplies or clothes yet, but it's cool.
Also, Kevin, Debbie, Kevin and me are going to Kings Island tomorrow which should be fun. And hot.
Also, I really miss Amber. We haven't spoke to each other in a month. I don't know what happened.... I guess she doesn't want to talk to me. I've been waiting for her to call me but I guess she won't. I don't want to call her, cause it'll be awkward. But I really do miss her. I absolutely refuse to ever go over there if her sister's there. I know Amber is my best friend, but if it means not seeing her again, then I won't see her again. I'd rather sleep on a bed of nails than be at their house when Amanda is there. I want Amber to come over here, but we live too far away from each other. I can't go over there though. It's a long story.
Long story: so, ever since last December, Amanda has hates my guts. Ever since she started going out with Aaron. My theory is that she started hating me because Aaron of course, liked me. Before they started going out. So of course, she can't be friends with me. We used to be close though. Now, all she does is call me a whore and a cunt. Sorry honey, but I don't whip around my vagina for every guy to test out. I'm being dead serious when I say this, Amanda has literally been with over 100 guys. She used to have a new one every week. Seriously. I've known her for a long time, and I know she's been around. So she has no room calling me a whore. I'm sorry, but I'd rather bot have to deal with that. I don't want that kind of stuff in my life, and if that means not seeing Amber, then so be it. Amanda is only fourteen. And I can almost promise you, that she will be pregnant before shes seventeen. Make room on 16 and pregnant, cause here comes another one. She's only 14, and she's been around the block and back. I'm not calling her a whore, because I have more class than that. I'm just saying. That she has no room to call me a whore when Kevin is my first boyfriend and my first love. And I know we're going to stay together. So I'd rather not get called a whore from her all the time.
I'm hoping to make a bunch of new friends this year. I hope I ca, but I'm a really shy girl. I keep working on my 100th post because I want it to be special.
Man, I love my lovely lover <3
And just for the hell of it, and because I'm listening to music, I'm going to do one of these.
PUT YOUR ITUNES, WINDOWS MEDIA PLAYER, ETC. ON SHUFFLE.
FORE EACH QUESTION, PRESS THE NEXT BUTTON TO GET YOUR ANSWER.
YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
IF SOMEONE SAYS ''IS THIS OKAY'' YOU SAY?
Two birds, one stone. -Drop dead, gorgeous-
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Growing up. -Fall out Boy
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
I slept with someone in Fall out boy and all I got was this song written about me
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Grand Theft Autumn. -FOB-
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Horseshoes and Handgrenades. -Greenday-
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Come home. -Eyes set to Kill-
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Broken Frames. -ESTK-
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
Bound and Gagged. -Creature Feature-
WHAT IS 2+2?
American Eulogy. -Greenday-
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
The pros and cons of breathing. -FOB-
WHAT DO YOU THINKK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Reverse this Curse. -Escape the Fate-
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
The meek shall inherit the earth. -Creature Feature-
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO WHEN YOU GROW UP?
The take over, the breaks over. -FOB-
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Situations. -Escape the Fate-
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
This ain't a scene, it's an arms race. -FOB-
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Liar, liar. -NeverShoutNever- Well that's not very nice....
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY//INTEREST?
West Coast Smoker. -FOB-
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Our lawyer made us change the name of this song so we won't get sued. -FOB-
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST ?
Reinventing the wheel to run over myself. -FOB-
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
American Idiot. -Greenday-
I'm sorry, I wanted that to be funnier. The only one I really laughed at was Bound and Gagged. I could've cheated and made it more funnier, but what's the fun in that?
This is post #99
Friday, August 5, 2011
Now, I'm In Ohio and we're all unpacked. I'm happy I'm back though. Kitty is just fine. She's happy we're home and we're getting Coby tomorrow morning. Im also going to Kevin's tomorrow. I can't wait to see him. I miss him! Alabama was nice though. I can start sleeping in again. I have a lot of pictures for you, but they're on my phone and I can't send them to my email until i get minutes. You can wait, right?
I'm almost to my 100th post. Maybe I'll make a really long post in honor of the crap I write on here. But hey, if you're reading this, thanks for actually paying attention to my blog. It really does mean a lot.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
It's the time for sleeping, relaxing in the beach, eating junkvfood like there is no tomorrow, sleeping all day, drinking until you pass out, staying up all night, partying, swimming, acting stupid, and of course, taking it easy.
I'm probably being stereotypical when I call the, whores, but hey, it's my post, I'll call them what I want.
So I have realized what I hate most of all about vacation.
You know the type..
The girls wthat where the itty bitty bikinis and flaunt what they have, or what they don't have with all their soul. The kind of bathing suits that barely cover anything. I absolutely hate those people. And don't say I just don't like them cause I'm jealous. Ha, you're funny. I'm almost a D cup. I'm just fine with my body. I just don't go around in public with all my junk hanging out. I find those people disgusting. COVER UP. Seriously, nobody wants to see that. I know they would never believe me, but it's true. Nobody wants to see your tits, or your couchy. If you wear one of these tiny things, you are basically screaming that you're a whore and you want to get laid. I mean, if that's really what you want people to think about you, go ahead and wear it. But I'm also talking about the whores that wear their bikini wherever they go. like, as clothes. It's not doing you any good to walk around half naked. Most likely you're going to get pregnant and you have some sex disease. HERPES.
Sorry for my rant and direct criticism. But Damn! I think Bikinis should be illegal for something. I hate them. I could wear one, I just don't. They're disgusting.
But thanks for listening to my rant.
Don't leave any stupid ass comments. I will delete them if they're dumb.
So I should be starting my period sometime soon, hopefully. It has a crazy schedule.
I should probably start my summer reading soon. Hell, I'm on vacation!
I really like it here.
I also love my boyfriend. I feel like I don't say that enough in my posts.
I want a child! Really bad!
Maybe I'll sleep in tomorrow :3
Sleeping in doesn't exist on vacation.
I miss my cat:( I hope she's doing okay...
For a Tuesday, I think it was alright.
Only two more days here. But I miss my boyfriend. So I need to get back before I go crazy from love withdrawal.
New post tomorrow!
So yesterday was a pretty good day. I woke up fairly early but I didn't get to see Dolphines. We had breakfast and then I feel right back asleep. So far, everyday of this vacation, I took a nap. After I woke up, and everybody else did, we all went to the Outlet mall. Everybody else has been taking a nap everyday too. The mall was pretty stupid. There were a heck of a lot of stores, but I didn't get one thing there. We all got ice cream, but that doesn't count. We were there for about two hours. It was also raining really hard and we spotted funnel clouds. Scary stuff. At about five thirty we went to Applebees and had dinner. It was really good. We were the only people there. On our way back from Applebees we stopped off at the little tourist stores that are fun. I was on a hunt for those surfer dude necklaces that have the beads and the shark tooth. I finally found one that'll look soooooo sexy on Kevin. Mmmm! I can't wait to see it on him.... Shirtless! Ive been talking about it a lot too. About how sexy he's gonna look. I mean, he's already flippin sexy as he'll but I thinkthe necklace will look great on him. I also got Debbie a box of Salt water taffy cause I know how much she likes that. After we got back, we relaxed a bunch and I got naked. It's too hot for clothes! Pshhh. What are clothes? Well after a while I put back on my clothes and walked around. I walked down to the beach for a little bit but I'm not too sure why, or at least I think I walked down to the beach. Maybe if the wifi worked yesterday my memory would have been fresher. Later on i took a shower. Not too interesting. A little bit later, Robin had me govwith her down the street to the stores. She tried on about fifty bikinis and i had to help her pick one out. My feet hurt real bad after that. Later that night me and Robin heard noises in our condo. No, it wasn't the people next door. It was too vivid and clear for it to be anywhere but somewhere in here. After we heard a big noise, we heard little noises after that. We got scared and Robin told me to come in her bed. After a while, we grew the balls and got up. We searched the bathroom first and for weapons, I had the straightener in my hands and robin had the hair dryer, cause you know, if the killer had a gun, we straighten him to death. He'd be no match for our scary hair dryer. After we searched the condo, we went to bed.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Well, we're about to leave here, I'll update later on about my day today, if there's Wifi!
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Last time I posted, it was before my birthday. Well, I'm 16 now. Yay? I didn't have a party, like most sweet 16 ers. Debbie and Kevin took me out. It was great. It was really fun. We went mini golfing and go carting. We watched fireworks and had a lot of fun.
I am blogging from the comfort of my bed at this moment. I got a wireless router for my birthday and now my IPad is a computer. I'm addicted to it. I also bought a deck of Magic: The Gathering cards and a deck builders toolkit. The weekend after my birthday weekend, last weekend, my sister and I dog sitted at her friend's house so we stayed there ll weekend it was fun. I hung out with Amber cause Robins friend lives in the same trailer park.
My family and I are leaving for our vacation on Alabama this Friday. I'm kinda excited. I'll take some pictures.
How are Kevin and I? Amazing as always. I do love my Kevin. I've noticed that all the other couples in my school are breaking up. That makes me happy cause Kevin and I are not going to break up. So all the other couples are breaking up and me and Kevin keep getting closer. We're closer than ever lately. I'm not too sure what else I should say.
Well, that's all for right now.
Oh yeah, and also, June 30th was just about the best day of my life. <3
Monday, June 27, 2011
What do you think my next post should be about?
What do you want to know about me?
Name a word you made up and what it means.
Is it considered Necrophilia if it's a Zombie?
Thursday, June 23, 2011
It's been a while since I last posted, which I feel bad about. I'm sorry. I'm not sure what I last posted about.
This time, I'm just gonna mope around on this post.
I'm kinda depressed right now. I'm turning 16 in 16 days. Like every other normal sweet 16 person, I want a party. Unfortunately, I can't have a party. Wanna know why? I'm lame! I have no friends. I have a couple, but eh. I can't have a party for 3 people. I have Kevin of course, and Amber. Maybe Alex but I have no way to contact him. Pancake, I also have no way to contact him. Kevin's family are more of my family than friends so yeah... I can't party with my grandma on my 16th birthday. That's stupid. My original plans were to go to the beach waterpark with Kevin. But I hate going to swimsuit places with him. IT makes me uncmfortable. How do I know he's not checking them out or staring at their tits? I look terrible in a bathing suit cause it's a one piece with no clevage. I hate my stomach so I never show it. We all know how guys are around bikini babes. So those plans got shut down cause I really don't feel like feeling insecure on my own birthday that's supposed to be all about me. I trust him, I really do. But he says he's "Looking at them in disgust". He says he only has eyes for me so he shouldn't be looking at them in the first place, but he still looks at them. Which that make me feel like crap also. I'm just having a terrible week.
1. I can't do crap for my birthday.
2. I almost lost Amber as a friend.
3. Kevin says he likes my old emo bangs better than my newest bangs that I think fits me a whole lot better.
4. Kevin says he always look at girls.
5. I keep thinking about me dying and about how he'll probably remarry if I die and I hate that idea.
6. I keep thinking about how gross I am.
I feel like my love life is down the drain. I feel like some hot girl is gonna come and steal Kevin away from me. I just feel like crap. He says stuff that really bugs me sometimes. I'm in a depressed mood. I wish I could scream, but I'm not gonna. I guess I just have to wait it out. Maybe Kevin will say cute stuff to me to make me cheer up. I just can't help but wanna cry when I think of him looking at other girls. I always tell him not too, but he does it anyways. And he wonders why I always feel insecure. Huh. I just want to be treated like a princess like any girl should. Oh well. Life's a bitch.
Thursday, June 2, 2011
On Friday when I got there, pancake was over there. He looked so different. His hair was past his shoulders and he didn't seem all happy and joyous when i got there. He had to leave like a half hour after i got there and that sucked. But his birthday was Saturday so he opened his present from amber. She got him a black shirt with a big skull on it and she got him black skinny jeans and she made him put it on as soon as he opened it. He looked a lot better in it than in his normal clothes. On Saturday we really didn't do much. Mainly game shows. I've come to love the show baggage and it was quite interesting. The show love trianglenmade me angry but it was also interesting. On sunday pancake came over again and that was fun. He was there till about midnight. Earlier that day amber painted his nails black and I straightened his hair. Then amber told me that she wanted me to cut his hair since it was so long and guy don't look good with longer hairbrush their shoulders. Somehow I think she's turning him into her dream guy. I think they would make a great couple. He's already in love with her which i think is adorable as he'll! So we went outside and i cut his hair. I was sloop nervous because I've never cut anybody's hair but my own. But it turned out great! It was very even and a little above his shoulders. I cut about four or five inches off and it turned out great. She told me to leave the bangs alone so that he would be able to do hair flips for her. Lol she's crazy but that's why we love her. He wouldn't let us put guyliner on him though. We hung out in Amber's room for a while until he left.
Today is one of the exam days. I had one exam in first period and it was just fine. I'm pretty sure I passed. We had two hours for that exam and that was my freshmen class. Second period was fun. I didn't go to the library yesterday because i went to Kevin's house so I didn't get to pick up any books so I brought my iPad to school so that so could have something to do today.
I'm not so sure what else to write on this post because I wrote it 2 or 3 weeks ago.
Monday, May 30, 2011
Okay, cut me some slack.
I'm a sixteen year old high school girl with her seventeen year old boyfriend who just happens to be loving and funny (not to mention sexy) and is nice to everyone he meets and can make anybody his friend. Who wouldn't love a guy as perfect as him?
Honestly, I don't mean to always be so jealous, it's just natural for me. I guess it shows how much I care for him? well when he gets jealous it lets me know that he cares.
My jealousy isn't just with Kevin, though.
I get jealous of other people's parents and how close they are. How chill they are and let their kid spend night with her boyfriend for 4 days. I get jealous girls who are prettier than me, (which isn't a lot. Have you seen the girls here? W-H-O-R-E-S. And trust me, Honey, being a whore is not cute.) I mean, yeah, I have pretty hair, and a pretty smile. I have a pretty eye color and great boobs. I just need to work on my figure, and some other stuff.
So, I don't only get jealous with Kevin, it's just a big part of it. It's not that bad, I just need to learn how to control it.
I've learned to control some of it. I'm in the process of not saying "Is she pretty?" to him. He always gives me the same answer anyways. "No, Karen, I'm not paying attention to her." "I only have eyes for you." "You're the only person in the world who's pretty." And stuff along those lines. Honesty is policy with us. We have a trust thing going on. We can actually trust each other. He just doesn't trusts guys around me, and I don't trust girls around him, but we deal with it. It's kind of more hard on him though because I hate girls. Can't stand them. Amber basically the only female friend that I have. I hate girls, girls hate me. It works that way. All of my Friends are mainly guys. Guys are nice to me. Girls are just mean. Am I the only one who thinks girls are a hell of a lot worse than guys are? Well I like guys. They make better friends. But I can never picture myself with any other guy than Kevin. He's the only guy for me. He's seriously the only guy I ever want. I think some guys are cute sometimes, but I really only have eyes for Kevin. I may think some are cute every now and then, but I could never be with anyone other than Kevin. He's my one and only.
With other girls:
Okay, I've eased up a lot.
I don't care if Kevin has female friends. I don't care if he talks to them or laughs with them and has fun conversations with them. I mean, why should I be that much of a hypocrite? I'm always around guys and they crack me up. Kevin has every right to have female friends. I'm not saying that it won't bug me though. I need to get used to it. I know it bugs him when I'm around guys just as much as it bugs me when he's around girls. But it's alright though cause we trust each other. I don't care about any of that, but I am a hypocrite about something. And I'll admit it too. I'm a Hypocrite. I don't want him hugging girls. I know, I sound controlling, but I'm really not. We have an equal and loving relationship that a lot of people can't handle. Nobody wears the pants with us. We each own one pant legs. I have stuff that I don't like, and he has stuff that he doesn't like. One of them just happens to be hugging girls. I'd rather not have some other girl put their tits all other his chest. Too close for my likings. Karen don't do hugs. I love hugs though. I'm a hypocrite and I don't care. I'm a great girlfriend to him. And he's the best boyfriend there will ever be.
Karen and Kevin.
3-31-10 ~ The end of time.
Thursday, May 26, 2011
So remember what I said that my sister got in a wreck back in February? Well she did it again yesterday. Except this time she didn't get a cool scar on her forehead that looks like a lightning bolt and her car isn't totaled. She only screwed up the bumper this time but she also involved another car this time. The cops are taking her license away for six months this time though. She has too many points against her too. Mommy told me yesterday that I need to hurry up and get my license so I can drive her around, but I'm not getting my temps until I turn 16 next month. Woo? Well I'm also getting a job. I can't wait. I hate being in the house all day every day. After tomorrow, we only have four days of school left. I can't wait. Kevin and I decided that we were going to go to Kings Island the first day of Summer break.
SO our school is stupid now. I passed all of my OGT's (Ohio Graduation Tests) and what they also do is you get a final exam exemption in the subject you passes. I passed all five (Reading, Writing, Math, Science, and Social Studies.) So I should get 5 exam exemptions..... Right? Wrong. That had is every year before ours that we are allowed to use the writing exemption on a foreign language or an elective. Well they changed that a week before the freaking exams. It ticks me off. I was looking forward to not taking any exams. Well my French teacher has all these stupid plans for our exam like making a poster, doing a dance, and a written test. Well I straight up told her that I refuse to do the dance. Karen don't dance. She said that it's fine as long as I think of something do instead of it. I'm ticked off though cause I don't want to do any of the exam. Je deteste danser!
I hate this. I wanted to just read all of the last two days of school. Oh well. I'm finally not sick anymore though. So that's a good thing, I guess.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
For all of those who are reading this, it looks like the Doomsday was a Doomsfail.
I have decided to write a rough draft of this post on my Ipad. I am obsessed with it. MY mom got it free from her work. It's the shizz. Anyways, I'm sorry that I have not blogged in a while. Since I got Runescape membership a couple weeks ago, that has been all I could do, basically. This this is very fun to type on. I didn't go to school on Friday cause I'm sick, then I felt guilty all weekend because of my schedule. Since I wasn't there on Friday, I wasn't there to turn it in either. I'll turn it in tomorrow. I didn't go cause I felt like crap. My throat is teaming up with my head to murder me. The book I'm reading write now is really good though. It is confusing but oh well. I don't have much to say. This is like an update. Kevin and I are doing perfect as always. The world was supposed to end yesterday, for all of those who don't live in a cave. Or in the woods like Osama. He wasn't even in the woods. He was living out in the open, in a mansion, for 10 years. We couldn't even find him. Osama Bin Laden is the Hide and Seek champion. *Back on subject* That's pretty crazy. I didn't believe it though. Well, I didn't, until near 6 Kevin kept was talking to me and I asked him if he believed it and he said "Not at all......well..... there is that slim chance......" And that's when I started freaking out. I decided to joke around about it though cause I felt uneasy. I kept saying stuff like, "If the world doesn't end, I think I'll make some brownies later" and "This is the time when I have to make the life-changing decision.....Should I eat my Subway sub..... Or die hungry...." I like to joke about stuff when I feel uneasy. But yeah. Nobody can predict when the world is going to end. Plus, if the guy was wrong back in 1994 then he is most likely wrong now, also. Another this is that he predicted it's going to end by a huge earthquake. First of all, how likely is it that a big apocalyptic earthquake is just going to end all of human civilization? Not likely at all. Second of all, no human can predict an earthquake. An earthquake is a natural disaster, not a predicted disaster. Did we predict hurricane Katrina? Nope. Did we predict the earthquake in Haiti? Nope. What about all those tornadoes that ripped through the south of U.S? Nope. And that thing that happened in Japan. None of these cases were predicted. They're called natural for a reason. Do you predict that you're going to start having dandruff tomorrow? Do you predict that you're going to get a paper cut in the next 12.7 seconds?
What I really hate is that everybody keeps saying that it's going to end yesterday by a Zombie Apocalypse. WRONG! The dude did not even mention Zombies. There was two major news stories going on at the same time. The dude with the doomsday earthquake, and the radiation in Japan could cause the rise of the dead in the near future. THE TWO STORIES DO NOT INTERTWINE! DON'T GET THEM MIXED UP! I swear, if I hear one more person say "I'm sad that the world didn't end on Saturday cause I was looking forward to getting ate by a Zombie," I'm going to punch a 3 legged infant.
This post lasted longer than I thought it would.
Okay, right after the clock hit 6:00 pm, a lot of my friends posted really funny status' on Facebook. Here are some!
"The world is ending in 5 minutes... You better start on your bucket list :p" -Alex 5:56
"WE DIDN'T DIE!!!" -Samantha 6:01
"Look, I'm still breathing..so I'm not dead." -Callie 6:02
"Well, I'm still alive. I'll just go on with my daily life now. Thank" - Alex 6:02
"Man, This Earthquake sure is intense!" Kristen 6:03
And I have now survived 2 school bomb threats, and the end of the world. Yeah, I'm pretty much invincible.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
I had an amazing weekend. I actually went to Amber's for the first time in literally 3 months. I realized what I had been missing. Now I'm going to try to go over there every other weekend or every 3 weekends. Ugh, I love it there. Start from the beginning? Alright, You asked.
Friday- As soon as I got home, I planned on taking a shower because I knew I was going over Amber's. But that morning I hadn't had breakfast or lunch, so I was pretty hungry. While I was eating cookies and milk (Yeah, I'm cool like that) Amanda called me saying they'll be here in 10 minutes. So I rushed to pack my stuff and not even five minutes later they were there. Great. So I hurried up and got in the car. Gross, Aaron was there too. I wasn't in the mood for bull crap, so I didn't say anything Blah, Blah, Blah, Car, Library, Amber, Home. Then Jacob was also there. (The three year old they babysit) But lucky enough it was Amanda's day to watch him. When we got there, I learned that they were watching their cousin's dog (or supposed to be) and get slipped out of his collar and ran. He's been on the loose since Wednesday and nobody can catch him. Amber's mom even put a 100$ reward on him. Well, we were on a dog hunt all weekend. While we were walking around we ran into some people on the road who stopped to talk to us. One of those people just happened to be Brady. I hadn't seen him for about a year and a half. He hit his growth spurt and was now taller than me. Well he ended u walking around with us and looked for Tyson with us. He was actually spotted and we all ran after him. Brady chased him down in the woods but still could not catch him. We went and hung out in the park and stuff. Then later on we went on a hike. It was fun but also scary because where Amber lives is a lot of pedophiles, so being in the woods is not the best idea. But we did it anyways. We went far enough to find a creek that nobody knew was there. There was also a cute waterfall and a picnic table. It was beautiful. Then it was time to climb back up the hill to go back to the trailer park. I'm not the climbing type. Brady offered to carry me, which was very thoughtful, but I said no. I'm an independent woman who can be tough. Halfway up the hill we heard the ice cream truck then we hurried up the hill. I bought us three ice cream. Then we went to the park to tease little kids with our ice cream. It was a fun day.
The next day was alright. I'll just skip to the fun part. Brady, Amber, and me at wal-mart.
Never get us three with the condom isle. We were getting a bunch of condom boxes so we can put them in cool places and there was a mom, dad, and a young boy in the same isle looking at lube. I held up a box of pregnancy tests and I told Amber "Here Amber, try this one. It's 99% accurate!" In a really loud voice so they could hear me. We busted out laughing. Of course, Brady wouldn't hold any condom boxes, so as we were walking around and we saw a big group of people, we screamed at him "Oh, here Brady. Here's the Extra-small box of condoms you asked for!" We made sure to do that about 5 times.
Places where we put a box--
On top of men's boxers.
In front of a big TV screen.
Amber threw a box at a mom and daughter looking at shoes-we ran to the other side of the store.
Pleasure pack- In front of a Barbie Doll.
Extra Small- In a huge shoe sticking out.
Tropical Flavored- In front of the Banana's that were on sale- We stood and watched peoples reactions from afar- One lady almost took them.
On top of the hot dogs.
In front of the huge jars of pickles.
We wanted to put one in front of the mayonnaise- Couldn't find it.
We talked Amber's mom into going to go get some Bananas. While she was checking out Brady, Amber and Me were making up funny scenarios.
Brady would walk over to the Banana's while there was a crowd around. He would look at the Banana's and yell, "Aww Grandma! Here's where you left your condoms!"
Brady would walk over to the Banana's while there was a crowd around. He would look at them and yell " Oh, here's where I left these!"
And more stuff like that. We laughed about that all night. Then we went to walk around and we each had a Banana. After we each finished our banana, Brady would through each as far as he could and yell "Mario Cart this Shi*!!" It cracked me up.
Yeah, I only made this post to tell you about the condoms. But yes, I went to wal-mart on my prom night. I had a hell of a lot more fun there than I ever would at a dance.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Of course, I was stupid and careless, and our little boy was soon taken away by social services. Soren and I were both very devastated. We never saw him again. Due to our devastation of our loss, we decided to try again and move forward instead of hold onto the past. Well, we tried again, and we had a baby girl. I named her Zenon. She ended up having long brownish red hair, just like Soren's. She also had a lot of my traits, like being a vegetarian, hyperactive, and she also shared my love for painting. She was the cutest little girl.
All while she was growing into a teen, I practiced guitar. I got really good, but I chose not to go big and get famous, because I wanted a family, not fame. Once Zenon grew into a little teen, Soren and I decided to have another baby. It was a big decision because we also had to put Zenon into thought and how having a baby would affect her. I ended up pregnant anyways, and soon later had Nikoli, our baby boy. He had my blond hair and reminded me a lot of our first child. I tried not to let that get me down. He grew into his own traits, like athletics.
Time passed and our children grew. Zenon got great grades and graduated from high school while Nikoli was entering high school. Soren and I decided that three kids was enough to have. We focused all our attention on them as they grew. Zenon explained to me that her life long dream was to have a big family with the love of her life. I told her that the only way that could happen was if she found her one true love. We all packed our bags and moved to our dream house which was beautiful house of the ocean. It was a boat house, in a way.
My name is Zenon Miller, and I have mission. Yes, my dream is to have a big family with the love of my life. All of my family knows. Well, maybe not Nikoli. He's an odd one, indeed. I'm young and I'd say I'm cute. I loved my long hair; everyone did. But, I got in cut into a cute like reddish bob that really brings out my face. During the day, I turn my flirt switch on and I roam the streets aimlessly hoping to find 'him'. My mom ended up throwing me a 'Get to know us' party, since we were new to the neighborhood, but she told me that she wouldn't have done it if I didn't need to meet some guys, pronto.
The party went fine, however, all the guys were duds. Later that night, I saw a man walking on the sidewalk. I quickly ran out to him, because nobody usually walks on the sidewalk near our house. Little did I know, he was crazily attractive. When I went to talk to him, we instantly clicked. His name is Justin Bailey. He had long brown hair that was triple as long as mine. He wears a top hat and a long black trench coat. He also had a little stubble as a beard. Something about his bad boy atmosphere was... Exhilarating. He excited me.
I invited him in and he met my family. They all seemed to get along. Then Justin and I stayed up all night talking and hanging out for hours. It didn't take long to grow feeling for him. It also didn't take long for us to start dating. He started coming over everyday and staying days at a time. I was falling for him. Big time. He asked me to marry him. Of course, I immediately said yes. Then I asked him if he would bear my child. Then, we took this question to the bed, which is where he had given me my answer. I was soon pregnant and when I announced my pregnancy to him , he was happy. We then had our first child. Sadly, I followed in my mom's footprint, and he got taken away by social services. My family was upset with me, but my mom understood my pain. Even Justin was angry at me. Him and his son got along great. I just know it was hard on him. I called him like 15 times everyday inviting him over. He never showed day after day. I could tell he was ignoring me. I started to become depressed and my mother knew it.
She gently told me what she thought which was a blunt way to say it's over. I still continued to call my fiance day after day. I started to give up on Justin. I soon met somebody whom I like a lot. His name is Jerry Daniels. He's a pale man with black dreadlocks. He's not the cutest, but that doesn't matter. We have fun together. We lay in bed all day laughing at the cooking channel and making fun of their fake french accents, and we play chess outside on rainy Wednesdays. We enjoy each other's company. He knew about my engagement, and accepted it.
We continued to only be romantic interests and I continued to call Justin everyday hoping he would come over so I could gently break the engagement. I wanted to be with Jerry, and more than romantic interests. He's the light that lights the living room of my life, my other half, and I want him to be the father of our future kids. If I could just speak with Justin... Or mail him.... I have much to tell him, so I'll say it now.
It's me, Zenon. It's been a while, huh? You've been ignoring me... Not coming over... Not calling me... I miss you. I loved you, I really did. But you suddenly went away. Somehow deep down, I know you've died. My conscious tells me so. If you killed yourself because of the loss of our son... I'm sorry. I feel like it's all my fault. Maybe you're still alive, or maybe you're dead.. but I still have many things to say to you. I don't want you out of my life, I really don't. I just don't want somebody who ignores me for all this time to be my fiance. I might be taking this the wrong way, and something might have happened with you and you had to leave right away, but still. I've met my one true love. I may have loved you for that some time, but I really love Jerry, and I say it to his face. We never used to L word with each other. He's okay with me being engaged to you. He knows the situation and how we haven't been seeing each other lately. Yes, I've been having an affair. We're basically not even a couple anymore, but still. Just in case, I wanted to end it with you in person and not something like this. I do want to end it though. Give somebody else a hold of my heart. I don't regret anything. I do love Jerry. Not you. I did, though. Maybe if we were still in communication for all that time, we would've worked out fine. Jerry mended my broken heart and drug me out from depression. Made me laugh and smile. Made me basically forget about you. But I couldn't let go unless I've said this stuff to you. I'm with Jerry. We've been together for a while. We took it slow. I'm over you. This is me letting go. So wherever you are, I hope you find happiness like I have. Oh yeah, this last part might be a bomb on this situation. Jerry and I have had a child. She has my mother's blond hair. She's adorable. Her name is Justine.
I'm right where I need to be. Forever His,
All Rights Reserved. Copyrighting or any use of this story without my permission is strictly plagiarism. Written by Karen Salyers. Used my original ideas from my family of Sims from Sims 3 for the Wii.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
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Saturday, April 9, 2011
I wouldn't say I'm a bad drawer, but I'm not that good. These are my pictures in my sketch book.This one is a girl trapped inside of a mirror. I used my charcoal pencils :3
I don't even know about this one. There's a cat popping up into the picture. The dude is trying to flick it. Don't ask =_=
I think this is me and Kevin. I'm kissing his cheek. and there is sparkles and hearts in the background? I don't know what I'm thinking when I draw....
I think this is supposed to be me. I think it looks really good. The legs are off though.
This is my worst picture. I dislike it times 1000. It just sucks.
This is obviously me and Kevin 10 years later. I think it's a cute like drawing. He's having trouble with the bottle because he's blond lol.
Random Pirate girl FTW. I drew this on Tuesday and Wednesday. I think it's a cute drawing.
This is my favorite of my drawings. She actually has tears in her eyes you just can't see them this far away. At the top it says "I'll sing a song about the past". I was actually going to write a story with that title. I eventually gave up on the idea. This was the main character, Evangeline Karianna Dellers and her life was filled with misery but she still looks towards her bright future.
Well, now you all know what my drawings look like. Comments?